Today, after getting what felt like rejection #120299 for a job I applied for and interviewed for, I decided that I am going to take a vow of job silence. I don't really talk about my job stuff on here other than sharing stories about annoying co-workers, but I have been looking and applying for a new job for 1.5 years. It's the most frustrating thing I have ever done and has been filled with rejection. All rejections no offers. I haven't turned down any opportunities. I think every interview goes well. I feel really good when I leave and then the waiting begins and it always feels like it's been too long, and when it feels too long, it means you didn't get the job. When the email or letter finally comes letting me know I didn't get the job, I am not surprised but am still sad.
I can't wait for the day when I finally get an offer but it feels like it will be never. Yes, this is not a very positive post, lo siento, my life is not all rainbows and unicorns. I know I am lucky to have a job. I never claim to not be but this rejection business does a number on your self esteem, which is my case, is already not very good to begin with.
After this mornings email I decided I am going to try something new, a vow of silence. I am not going to talk about the job hunt. The interviews etc. I am just going to do it. It's too hard to talk about or run into someone and they ask and they are asking about a job 10 applications before. Moving forward radio silence on this front. This will be hard for me because I am a sharer, but I am going to give it a go. The fact of the matter is, when I have a new job, I will be shouting it from the rooftops and leading my own parade. Until that time, I am keeping it real quiet around these parts.